Hi there!

So this is part 3 of "my history". its the recovery part. That took me four years already and its still not over completly. but it became better. Please read part 1 and 2 first so you know what's going on.

2010 untill Today.
So my mum went to visit her boyfriend a lot. she was here as often as she was there. It was 2010 and my problems started. And all I wished for was that she would be there. That explains why I cried so much, and begged her to stay, but she didnt. She went on a 6 week trip to australia with her boyfriend. It wasn't a great  birthday suprise, belive me.
Anyway. Because she was away so often, she didnt realy see my change. My dad did, and I think it must have been horrible for him to see it and not beeing able to stop it. He did his best to help me.
I was so desperate, I just wanted to be a normal girl that could do things all the other girls her age could.
Lets start from the part where i wasn't able to visit my friends house. My best friend Anna,
I mentioned her in part 1 made me try it. She said it would be great, and that I could go home when ever I wanted.She did her best to make it a great day. And it was great, which felt like big relive. She talked to me and gave me strength . And she always was the person I could talk too, besides my dad.
Then the part when I couldnt go to school. None fo my school"mates" notized that I was away. I met our schoolpsychologist and she helped me. And I got my first phone, so I could always call my dad.
And those are just some little parts of the recovery. my live went back to "normal" in little steps.
 It wont ever be like it was befor, and I dont care. I know my mum who by the way got devorced with my dad, moved out and married her new love (she lives with him in an other country) would never come back.
But today, I can deal with it.
Back then, all i wanted was to be a child again. To not have to worry about anything. I cried because I felt like my childhood was over. but it wasn't realy to be honest, I played with dolls untill i was 13. And I can tell you because you can't judge me.
Through all that time, my dad was my biggest help. But we also argued a lot. because I would get upsad about anything. Today it changed, I can keep myself calm a lot better.
I just hope that one person who reads it, who maby went through equal things and feels better now.
I just want to say that it gets better. And that you should hold on to the people who love you, and never hide your feelings.
 Now the update.

When it all started, i couldn't go to sleepovers, couldn't meet friends, couldn't go to school, couldn't leave my dad for more than an hour, couldn't throw things away, cried a lot, felt sick a lot and many other things.

Today its all gone. Thank god.

And that all came from jsut one decision my mum made.

Now i want to hear your thoughts please coment down below what the worst thing that you ever experienced was, and how you got over it.

Thanks for reading

See ya xx

Hi there!

Today I will talk about something that many of you probably struggle with. Weight.
You may now think that I am overweight when i now tell you i get bullied, but thats not the case for me. People pick on me because I'm skiny.
And I complain about that.
Eventhough skiny people mustn't complain. But thats not at all fair to me. At one side people bully skiny people, but on the other side we arent alowed to complain about that. That doesnt make sense!

People tell us things like this:
"ew you are so skiny, all i can see is bones"
"You should eat more"
"you know that beeing so skiny isnt hot?"
"you know that guys like curvy girls?"
 " You are SO skiny"

And people think thats ok.

But you cant tell a fat person equal things:
"Ew you are so fat all i see is flesh"
"you should eat less"
"you know beeing fat isnt sexy?"
"You know that guys like well shaped girls?"
"you are SO big"

Because that would be mean. But walking up to someone slim and telling them those things is ok?
Its like people literaly hate us for not beeing big. for not beeing like them.
Why do they do that?
to make themselfes feel better?
do we have to suffer because we are naturaly skiny?
what the hell do those people think?!
We arent alowed to be happy with how we look, but we arent alowed to complain either.
Of course i know that skiny was promoted for a long time, and now its the curvy ones turn.

But thats different.
Naturaly skiny people CAN'T put on weight, unless they eat untill they feel sick. And why would they hurt their body and be unhealthy, just to be "perfect"?
 But big people CAN loose weight if they realy want to.

And Of course there are also normal sized people. But what does normal sized even mean? Is that the middle between skiny and big?  where does skiny end and big start?

Now i want to disgust one last thing.
Offensive songs.
Have you ever heard a song insultig overweight people? No? well, me neither. But have you heard songs insulting skiny people? Yes? well, me too.
The famous example "all about that bass".
Now to be fair, it's ok that she tries to give people her sice and herself confidence.
BUT.
Here is where it get's mean, and offending. "Go ahead and tell the skiny bitches that".
Doesn't sound nice to me at all. Because the message I get from that, is, that she thinks skiny people are bitches.
And then "the boys like a little more boody to hold at night" well, and if you don't have that "little more boody" you won't find a boyfriend? so come on skiny girls, Megan Trainor thinks we are skiny bitches with no bum and no boyfriend, time to eat until we throw up! Is that what people want us to do?
So what happened now is that curvy girls get support, and skiny girls get insults.
well thanks.

Anyway. Maby you are "curvy ore "normal" and you know a skiny person. Please think before you talk.
And if you are a skiny girl, reciving insults, dont worry, they just don't know how it feels. My tip, tell them how it feels. And if they don't understand they are stupid and not worth talking to.

Please write me your opinion in the comments and subscribe:)

See ya xx